I've decided, that it's finally time to get the truth out, to not be the only one suffering.
The Mentalist is my favorite ongoing tv show no doubt, but sadly I can't watch it and enjoy it as I could 2 years ago when I started watching it. I'm not saying that the show was better 2 years ago because it wasn't. I'm saying this because I've watched too many interviews with the cast and behind the scenes clip that I can't even watch the show as if it's real, because now it all just reminds me of that the show is just fiction, there are cameras in front of the actors and the actors do pickup lines, nothing is real. Nothing is ever getting exiciting for me anymore, even though I know that some scenes are supposed to be exiciting, but I still get reminded of that all they do is just pickup lines in front of cameras and nothing else. I watch like 13 tv shows and I can't enjoy any of them thinking of this, and I can't control it in any way. When lisbon was knocked out by Red John she wasn't unconscious, she was conscious, because they are acting. She was aware of the stuntman pretending to be RJ was painting the RJ mark on her face. When RJ called Jane moments after I clearly hear Simon bakers voice. Same thing in s06e02 at the recap, but more clearly. I could go on. I want to watch tv shows like I could 5 years ago, and knowing that this never is going to happen again hurts badly because for 7 years I've lived for tv shows. And now it has been taken away from me, for life. I miss the exiciting feeling to watch a exiciting scene, the goosbumps you get after something messed up happens. I remember watching the movie se7en a little more than 2 years ago and after the ending I was so shocked, best movie I've ever seen, and I'm glad I watched when I could.
As I mentioned, The Mentalist is my favorite tv show and I will never be able to watch these last episodes in peace. Eventually this sickness will haunt you also, just when you least expect it.
